It all started with a little comment

A few nights ago, I went to a “gathering” with a friend of mine. Of course while we were there, we all were drinking and smoking the occasional blunt; some people when they drink, they can hold their liquor and act considerably normal. Others get rowdy. Some like to make comments and don’t necessarily realize what they’re doing or saying, so they can offend without giving much of a second thought.

I adore my friend Sarah to bits – we hit it off last year when we both started attending our current university; never had any arguments or disagreements about anything trivial. That’s why I was a little taken off guard with a comment she made Friday night while we were all drinking and having a good time. I could tell she was a bit tipsier than the rest of us, so I really had no reason to get as offended as I did. But, every time someone makes a comment directed to my weight or weight in general, I do take a bit of offense.

To be honest, I can’t even remember how we got into the conversation (don’t know if that’s from the alcohol, or just a shitty part of my memory). We started talking about weight to make a long story short, I mentioned on how she was very weight conscious even though she doesn’t have to be, so she responded with she doesn’t want to look like her parents or get to their point because they are overweight. I took it the wrong way, thinking she was implying that it was my own fault for being overweight despite having medical issue that do make losing weight a bit more difficult (underactive thyroid, insulin resistant/pre-diabetes, PCOS).

Of course we apologized, and things have been since. But, of course, I was still a bit upset over the comment throughout the duration of the weekend and just finally came to the conclusion that I have to do ten times more than the next person to lose weight. I can’t just count calories, reduce carb intake, amongst other things. I have to really detox my body and change what I eat and my diet fully. I have to make new lifestyle choices; I can’t eat regular chips, or fattening food anymore.

A few years ago I was fully against a vegan diet. I’ve wanted to become a vegetarian for quite sometime, but never really acted upon it. The last time I tried was during the fall semester, and I stopped within a week because I knew damn well I wasn’t doing it correctly, and I just thought it wasn’t for me. This time, though, I have a complete change of heart and have been doing numerous amounts of research on the topics to the point that this time I know what I have to do and how I have to go about doing it. Now that I’m more educated, I can say that I am ready to try a whole vegan diet and see where it leads me.

As much as I love meat and certain dairy products, my body can’t handle it anymore. I’m only 20 and I along with these health issues, I have to make more drastic changes in order to lose weight more effectively, and just change what I’ve been doing for so long now. I’ve had many opportunities to lose weight and change what I’ve been doing; I’m not passing this one up. By next year I want to be significantly healthier and thinner with a complete new mindset and a new lease on life. That’s why, I feel that this is what I have to do. And I think for once in my life, I’ll be able to stick to it.